...memories are just where you laid them...dragging waters 'til the depths give up their dead...what did you expect to find...was it something you left behind...don't you remember everything I said when I said...don't fall away...and leave me to myself...don't fall away... and leave love bleeding in my hands...in my hands again...leave love bleeding in my hands...in my hands...love lies bleeding...oh hold me now...I feel contagious...am I the only place that you've left to go...she cries that life is like some movie black and white...dead actors...vacant lies...over and over and over again she cries...don't fall away...and leave me to myself...don't fall away... and leave love bleeding in my hands...in my hands again...leave love bleeding in my hands...in my hands...love lies bleeding...and I wanted...you turned away...you don't remember...but I do...you never even tried...don't fall away... and leave me to myself...don't fall away... and leave love bleeding in my hands...in my hands again...leave love bleeding in my hands...in my hands again...leave love bleeding in my hands...in my hands again...
Today
Friday February 16th 2001
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News/Updates: I deleted the entire music section, cause I figured if I desperately wanted to talk about music, than I'll use the thoughts section. I also plan on saving each day in it's entire form, instead of having to pick apart the sections. I don't know why I never thought of doing that. Eventually I'll figure out a way to put a search through the site, where you could look up key words, and or specific dates or lyrics or whatever. And next week, I'll have some extra time on my hands so I'm going to begin to scan some of my art from my classes. So for tonight I think I'll just do a main page update, and begin to save the page as a whole. You'll still be able to find it in the archives, under the title Pages. Hopefully when I get even more time, I'll re-order the peices into their original pages. Maybe. I'm just going to take it one step at a time.The List (just what i'm thinking about...) : 1. Alan.
2. Napster, I'm going to miss it, it's so nice to be able to download all these songs, from all these cds I want to buy.. lately I've been getting into these...
3. ...incredible Madonna remixes... I'm really digging one I found of "Frozen" by someone named Victor Calderone.
5. Trying to better my life.
6. Being poor, I hate it.
7. Saturday night... a keg party, yay!
8. Alan.
9. My room needs to be cleaned really bad.
10. Sleep. Good therapy.
11. William Orbit's remix of Beethoven's 9th Symphony
12. My Figure Illustration class, I think I've come a long way in these few weeks, hehe every night I look through my ginat newsprint pad to see how I've improved, and how I really do have some ounce of talent.
13. This website, what I need to do to it, and to finish it, and to be able to update it quickly.
14. Moving out, I have to soon, that has to be a long term goal for me right now.
15. Alien Antfarm, I saw them the other night with Taproot and Linkin Park and they were pretty good, the guitarist was a bit odd, but they were definately cool, and I'm digging their single, "Movies".
16. I never really noticed just how big my boobs are until today... god..
17. I don't wanna go to work...
18. I've having a nice hair day today... :)
Thoughts: I really like lyrics that could be poetry in some fasion. I think that's what makes lyrics really connect with a song, and the song to succeed, at least to me, a very prime consumer. It's what I look for the most in music, which is why I decided to include a lyrics section on this site. I always wondered what the soundtrack to my life would be and here it all is.Do you ever want to just hit the car in front of you while driving, cause they are either old or retarded and do not know how to drive, or shouldn't be driving, and you just want to hit them really hard to wake them out of the haze they seem to be in? Really, the world should come up with a safer and easier method of travel. I'm surprised we haven't come that far yet. All I'm saying is where are the Jetsons or how about Back to the Future. I want a god damn transporter system. Imagine it, simply pick where you want to be, and there you are. I mean there would have to be regulations or something. How about access codes?
I watched this movie tonight called Whipped. It's about three guys who like to scam girls over to get into bed with them, until one day they all fall in love... with the same girl... and in the end it is her that scams them over. Really got me to thinking, and I've decided that another one of my goals right now is to be like that. I want to be the heartbreaker, not the one with the broken heart. I want the power, I want the control. I want to be so wanted by the oposite sex, that at times like this, when I'm recovering from a broken heart, I won't have to worry about low self-esteem, and confidence, cause I would be positive that I could find someone, even if it's only a physical thing. Cause I mean, I'm young and I should have fun, and I think I've learned that love and relationships aren't really destined for me, at least right now I guess. I hope.